It's Raining, It's Snowing...It's Sleeting

As much as many of you have heard me complain about my new job...I have to say that I am eternally grateful that they do allow me to telework at max 4 days a week if I am in town. And my trip to Jax was canceled on Monday - woot woot! So, I have been working from home yesterday and today...but now due to the weather, it's looking like it will be through Friday!

One of the things I have not learned in the nearly 6 years...holy cow, 6 years...of living in KC is how to drive well in ice. We actually get more ice than snow here. Snow isn't as big a deal - just gets slushy...ice on the other hand...leads to accidents.

I thought we were done, but according to the nefarious weather people, we are due to get close to 6 inches dumped on us tomorrow night. I'm so happy I went to the grocery store on Monday night! I'm also so freaking happy I'm not in Jax right now looking at the weather dreading trying to get back in KC and then spending twice if not three times as long on the interstate white knuckling it home.

I went to Singapore 2 years ago in November only to fly back home into a huge snow storm...thank god I had a car service picking me up otherwise I would probably still be on the side of the road!

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On another note, it's hard to believe that I spent 3 years in Japan, much less that I have been back basically 6 and a 1/2 years now...it feels like another lifetime. I still keep in touch with a few people there, my old boss, a teacher, my colleague. I actually tried to join the alumni association for the program I was on when I moved to KC...it was a waste of time. Now they are writing to say due to lack of engagement by the members we may lose our status as an alumni chapter. They listed all of these activities that apparently they do monthly - NONE of which were communicated to me when I originally joined way back when. It seemed a slapdash organization of losers who had joined the JET programme because they couldn't make it in the states. But seeing as how I have no life and can qualify as a pathetic loser, I am now considering going to the next meeting. Only if it doesn't snow.

All of this reminds me of all the things I did to try to meet people when I first moved here. I have 3 alum orgs I could join...none of which have ever made me feel remotely welcome. I took horseback riding lessons - met some very nice 13 year old girls. I took ballroom dance lessons - that's right! I was ahead of the "Dancing with the Stars" curve and can "cha cha" with the best of them! There I met some very nice 65 year old men - I'm not that desperate yet, well maybe only because none of them struck me as a Sugar Daddy. Just kidding. If you name the type of dating I've done it...high speed dating, dating agency, online dating, begging friends and family to set me up...it's a tough town. But, it's tough all over.

I believe you have certain windows of opportunity and if you miss them you are basically screwed - and not in a fun way. Perhaps I should have listened to The Colonel's Mom and used my university years to get my MRS degree. What the hell was I thinking getting a degree? Granted, one I only used for about 6 months...but still.

Then, I could be 35 and divorced with at least 2 kids. Just a different kind of pathetic loser. No, I think I'll take the role of Crazy Aunt Leslie with 2 cats...maybe I should just join a nunnery, they probably wouldn't have me.

He's Mr. Heat Miser...he's Mr. Sun

Happy Holidays to you all!

1. Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate? Hot Chocolate

2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree? We use bags and tissue paper.

3. Colored lights on tree/house or white? white or both? I like both, but not at the same time – you must pick a theme. No blue lights please.

4. Do you hang mistletoe? No, why bother.

5. When do you put your decorations up? Sometimes right after Thanksgiving, but not this year. Beckham would destroy them all.

6. What is your favorite holiday dish ? Cannoli – my mom used to make it. I can make it but only with her help. I’ve tried on my own…doesn’t turn out.

7. Favorite Holiday memory as a child: getting my roller skates

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa? I figured it out on my own. Mom thought my brother spilled the beans.

9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve? Nope, we aren’t allowed to – except for the family DVD that we then watch that night. But these days as no one lives close, I open my prezzies whenever I want to. Wheee!!!!!

10. How do you decorate your Christmas Tree? I have a little fake tree from Target that already has lights on it. I then just put on my favorite ornaments and try not to overload it so that it will actually stay upright. But with the addition of the new cat – not even going to bother this year.

11. Snow! Love it or Dread it? Like it – but only when I don’t have to shovel it or drive in it.

12. Can you ice skate? Yup, own my own skates too.

13. Do you remember your favorite gift? Trip home for the holidays when I lived in Japan …

14. What's the most important thing about the Holidays for you? Spending time with family and friends.

15. What is your favorite Holiday Dessert? No one makes it anymore since my Great Grandmother passed away…she made this amazing bundt cake that she called a “Sock-it-to-me” cake. All swirly and drizzled with icing…

16. What is your favorite holiday tradition? Watching movies with the family.

18. Which do you prefer -- Giving or receiving. I like both.

19. What is your favorite Christmas Song? I like the Jewel Christmas Album...no favorite song.

20. Candy Canes! Yuck or Yum ? Yuck, I don’t like anything mint. I used to like the little ones b/c you could shove the whole thing in your mouth…the bigger ones end up sharpened like a weapon.

My favorite Christmas movie is the one with Mr. Heat Miser and Mr. Snow Miser - Mrs. Claus has to save the day by going to see Mother Nature (their mother).

Happy Holidays

So today was just crazy getting back in the swing of things from the holiday. I mean did everyone take a stupid/selfish pill? I had to go into the office today which is way the heck north of the river. Coming home was ridiculous because it had rained and was slightly drizzling and for some reason the entire world has to ride their brakes on the interstate. I just don't get it. I then have to mail something and instead of going to the post office - I go to this other store, a Mailbox Etc type store - thinking it will be faster...HA! The owner has left some poor kids in charge while he runs out for 2 hours!!! Only during the busiest time - from 5pm onwards. Feel sorry for the kid, but he also clearly has no ambition/intuition because it cannot be that difficult to take the addresses I have filled out on the form and enter them into the pre-loaded screen...but I guess I ask for too much.

THEN! I am a complete and total MAROON for deciding I would finally go to the grocery store for the first time in eons! I swear this old lady was going to just run me over - there I am with my cart filled with goodies crossing in the cross walk and she is barreling down!

I think I'm agoraphobic...okay maybe I'm not afraid to go out in public, I just don't like people. So much for the Christmas spirit.

Be Careful What You Wish For...

Last night I was bored and surfing the internet. Who the heck came up with surfing for the verb of using the internet anyway? But I digress, so I decided to Google old boyfriends. Dumb dumb dumb. Curiosity killed the cat and all that...so one of my ex-boyfriends, I guess the one that I wonder about the most - you know playing the "what if" game, got married last month. Nice photo from their wedding online. I don't have regrets per se, I just stupidly play the "what if" game...what if I never moved to Japan, what if I moved back to NYC when I returned from Japan...blah blah blah. So then comes the cliches...well, it just wasn't meant to be...sigh. I'm not sure I wanted it to "be" with him...but it would be nice if he at least pined away and suffered for a while over me.

Sometimes you get the answer you didn't want.

THANKS to Daniel Craig

So I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. Mine was good. Over the past few years, I've basically boycotted spending Thanksgiving with family and have spent it with my friend Michele, her sister Pam and their nephew Paul. This year was no different. Our usual goal is to eat as much as humanly possible and then veg out and either watch DVDs or go to the movies. We watched Jarhead on DVD - which I highly recommend and now reaffirms my want to read the book. We also went to the theater to see For Your Consideration - the new Christopher Guest movie, which we all HATED. Very disappointing. They all love Waiting for Guffman the best, I like Best in Show - this didn't come close. Frankly the concept has become his schtick and it's boring.

BUT, the best part of Thanksgiving in terms of movies was going to see Casino Royale! Daniel Craig is the best Bond since Connery! He may even be better! Casino Royale is similar to the one that Lazenby did - On Her Majesty's Service - in that it tells the story of how he's started - how he became Double "O" and he has a very serious love interest. Not to mention, the most important factor in the movie is the countless times that Daniel Craig is shirtless!!!! HELLO! The man is 38 years old and looks like that?! Amazing! The guy behind me in the theater is having an orgasm over the Aston Martin's he was driving, me, over every time he steps out of the ocean in those really tight Aussie style short trunks. Sigh...can't wait for the DVD.

I have been officially accepted in to the MBA program at Baker University. I'm pretty excited and freaked out at the same time. But truthfully, just can't wait to get started. My first class starts on Jan 26. Wish me luck.

The rest of my life has been virtually the same. Date guy never called again - not that I was holding my breathe. But, have been talking with a new guy online only to find out today that he "winked" at my friend who is also doing online dating - too funny.

Speaking of my friend, we went to dinner tonight together and there was this very bizarre couple across from us, who according to the waitress, come in once a week every week to basically read their mail and catalogs. I was like, HUH?! So, there they are...not speaking to each other reviewing their mail and STACKS of catalogs! So we played the game of trying to figure out which catalog they were looking at, Coldwater Creek and Red Envelope were two in their stack.

Yesterday I was laying on the sofa - I know, as usual - and I see this guy stop his car in front of my house. He gets out and speaks with my neighbor across the street, who I affectionately call the Criminal because I'm judgemental like that. The next thing I know, unknown man is walking towards my house. I think he's going to come to the front door - NO! He goes over towards the garage, so I leap off the sofa (okay, so maybe I just got up) and ran to the back room and there is he - IN MY FREAKING BACK YARD!!! So, I go out the front door and catch him then peaking into my old neighbors house - my old neighbor who is currently in assisted living b/c he fell 2 Halloweens ago as well as b/c he's a "hoader" and people reported him so social services deemed he is unable to take care of himself. Anyway, Unknown Man, is peaking in his front door, so I walk out and say, can I help you? He makes some crack about being a "daytime burgerlar", and I'm like, that is so not funny when I find you peaking in my neighbors front door after coming out of my own freaking back yard!!! He then claims to have owned my house before. WHATEVER! If you are that curious, come to the freaking front door! I can't even fathom just walking into someone's back yard - especially when they have a PRIVACY FENCE up for a reason!!!!! The nerve! What if he was casing the joint?! Thank God I have an alarm system. It totally freaked me out.

Go see Casino Royale.

Emmitt Time!

I'm so excited that Emmitt Smith won Dancing with the Stars!!!! I am now such a believer in the power of voting! First the mid-term elections and now this! I was actually a little nervous...but seriously, can you compare football fans to the freaks that might have actually like "Saved by the Bell"?! Mario always had this look on his face - no matter how humble he was pretending to be - like, I know I'm going to win. He was a ringer! He already had dance training! AND! I didn't think that Mario or Karina were very gracious losers! Their relationship - that they have tried to be coy about - is so freaking doomed!

So I'm in Jacksonville this week, got to meet my niece Ms. Sofia! She's a cute thing - but she doesn't really like me very much yet. I tried to explain to her that we were going to have so much fun together, chatting about shoes, barbies, hair and boys...but she was only interested in her Mommy feeding her - and really, who can blame her? Can't wait until she gets older.

So Jacksonville has this new radio station - according to my colleague - 100.7. They only play "feel good" music. So, they really have no limits to what they play and it's all sort of old school mixed with today. So this morning on my drive into the office, I got to listen to Rob Base - AND they played Prince, Erotic City! NO ONE plays that! Too funny.

I'm eager for the week to be over and to have Thanksgiving. I've been spending the last few Thanksgivings with my friend Michele, her sister and their nephew. Every year we've been playing a total SMACKDOWN game of Trivial Pursuit! I'm excited to pursue my Queen of the Pink Category crown yet again!

Looking forward to my triptophan nap too.

Vote or Die

So how exciting is the new Congress?! Can I get a "woot woot"?! I mean seriously?! And who the heck would have thought that stem cell research would have passed in the great state of Missouri?! Unbelievable! I actually feel like democracy worked! I'm also quite pleased by the number of women in office...hello Madam Speaker!

And in the midst of all the hoopla around the elections, my girl Britney finally decided to come to her senses about her worthless white trash husband and officially filed for D I V O R C E! I absolutely LOVE that all the blogs are now calling him FED-EX! What a walking disease that man is! I mean seriously, has he never heard of a condom?! Is he working on creating a baseball team? Because one more and he's got a basketball team! But I was sad to hear about Reece and Ryan...because clearly I know these people and their business is mine.

Oh! AND, can anyone tell me who the heck voted that the number one song on the Top 100 songs of the 80s according to VH1 is "Living on a Prayer" by Bon Jovi?! Speaking of voting, if Emmitt Smith does not win Dancing with the Stars it will not be from my lack of voting! I hate that Mario! He's so smarmy with those icky dimples! Who cheats on Ali Landry?! I mean HONESTLY!

I've officially gotten the word from my boss that I am able to attend graduate school...deep breath...i still can't believe this is something I am going to undertake. But maybe it will get me out of this rut/funk I've been in. I can obsess over something new - I'm sure you are all quite excited.

My date turned into the one hit wonder I thought it would. I am still the Queen of First Dates. Oh well. But I am disappointed in the fact that he just didn't come right out and say, hey, not interested. Guess we are all cowards at heart. Oh, and I'm sure his only memory of me is of my falling in front of him. Because that is really all I can remember of that night now! How pathetic am I? The heel of my shoe got caught in my trouser cuff...SPLAT! I'm sure he was thinking, is this girl epileptic?

Speaking of updates: my cursing resolution is not really in effect. I do have to say in my defense - well, there really is no defense. I am a chronic potty mouth. But, I have gotten better. I still contend that "freaking" just doesn't have as much oomph as it's much more powerful version, but there you go.

I'm trying...and frankly, f*** em if they can't take a joke.

In a Blue State

I am so freaking excited about the elections last night! I went out and did my civic duty and watched on pins and needles (read like Heidi Klum) last night! I couldn't stay awake and when I went to sleep the Democrats were 4 seats away - and now they are 2!!!!!!!!!! It's going to be an ugly recount that could go the way of Bush/Gore, but I'm so excited I can hardly stand it!

I recognize the world won't necessarily change, but I'm so tired of this "above reproach" government we have...maybe now he will start to pay attention to popularity polls and actually get down to creating policies that the people want!

Woot Woot!

People Suck

I am so tired of people who clearly don't want to do something, when it is their job, telling me that they don't know how to do it! The casually asked question, well how was this done last year...well, guess what?! Wasn't here last year, don't know! That's why I'm asking you!

There are times in business when telling the truth is not the best policy...such as hey, missed my flight because I overslept - I'd rather hear, the plane broke and they couldn't get me on another flight. But, in this case, tell me you know what, I don't have the time, can you find someone else? Or help me find someone else?

So did anyone watch the CMA's last night? I'm actually a pretty big country fan. I can two step with the best of them! I had no idea that Michelle Branch - of her own pop music fame as well as duet with Santana - is now in a country duet group called The Wreckers! They are really good. Also, there is a group called Little Big Town that looks like a country version of Abba, but sounds like Fleetwood Mac.

So that is my rant and my plug for the day. :)

Junior High Sucked the First Time...

Okay - so I went to see what this whole grad school thing is about...it seems like a great program, but DAMN is it expensive! Although, I qualify for tuition reimbursement it is not 100%...so this is pretty big. At least the session doesn't start until Jan 26, 2007 - so I've got some time.

So, I think I wrote previously about a "friend" of mine who basically fell off the face of the earth right around my birthday. It's really bothered me...I couldn't figure out what happened between us that almost 6 years of friendship would be ended. I felt like I had been dumped. So, I tried again...and basically was told that my messages were never received, apparently her cell phone was on the fritz, and that she assumed I was mad at her so she didn't "want to bother me". Sigh.

I really wanted to sit down and chat with her about the situation and then, the usual flakiness of her life comes into play...we are supposed to have lunch today and of course it's me texting her at 1:00pm saying, "what's up"? And her writing me yet another sob story of wrecking her car and blah blah blah. But clearly nothing is her fault anyway...I mean, the world is out to get her. Just disappointing.

Speaking of disappointing, had a date on Wednesday. Pause...I'm waiting for you all to get back in your chairs after falling out of them. As far as first dates went, it was fun. He's definite fling potential - not relationship potential, which is fine by me. BUT, here's my mixed signal...he calls me on Thursday, which was surprising based upon the usual "man rules". We have a nice chat...no plans were made. So, I call on Saturday, only to be completely blown off.

So the ball is in his court...and I'm not holding my breathe.

3 Tardies & You're Out!

So, my latest idea in my continual pursuit to figure out who I want to be when I grow up is...drum roll please...I'm thinking of going to graduate school. I'll pause now while everyone gasps! I KNOW! I can scarcely believe I'm saying it - in fact I actually shudder while saying it. I hate school. It's not that I hate learning, I am just not a fan of anything that is organized or structured. Probably why my life is in a shambles!

But...in my previous job search this summer when I was laid off, all I kept hearing from HR managers/recruiters, is "we love you, but we don't know where to put you" or "wow, your background is very eclectic". So, in my attempts to become more marketable...I am going to a prospective MBA students seminar this Saturday. I'm gonna get edumacated!

SWF Seeks Same

So one of my Aunt's has a doppleganger. Now that may sound fascinating and interesting to some of you, but what it really means is that she has a copy cat. Essentially anything that my Aunt has this woman has to have the same thing or something like it - including her freaking hair style! In fact, my Aunt is currently growing her hair out and so is her copy cat!

I've had friends who I've borrowed clothes with, exchanged items, but that was in high school...or maybe I'll give you as long as I had roommates, so early 20s. Funnily enough, we never had the same style, but could exchange certain pieces that fit within each others style.

Anyway, I cannot imagine having someone copy everything you do. It would be completely annoying.

"Working from home"

A surprising bonus this week! I do not have to travel!!!! For the first time in approximately 9 weeks, I have not had to go anywhere! I'm not altogether sure what to do with myself. I feel sure that the Parking Spot will call me asking where I am. I am so happy. I am also planning to "work from home" 3 days this week. I used to say "work from home" jokingly to old colleagues who knew that I would be doing anything but "work", but these days, I'm scarily productive working from home. And not just from a work perspective. I get loads done at home - laundry, dishwasher, changing of sheets. Perhaps it's due to the fact my computer is in my back room, with no television. My mood is also uplifted by being surrounded by windows! Something I never had before or now in my new "cube".

Another note, I am and have always been a bit "time-zoned" challenged. Recognizing that now I'm only working with colleagues domestically and we are usually talking about a 1 hour difference, I still manage to mess it up on a regular basis! I think a new discovery about myself is that I am dyslexic. Which may explain a lot about my grade in Algebra!

I was to have a meeting today with a colleague who I thought was on Eastern Time. Not realizing, not even thinking about her area code, that she is on Pacific time - OOPSY!

So not only am I clumsy, but I can't tell time.

Drooling in Baldwin

I really have nothing to say...I've been busy traveling again as usual...and I don't want to jinx myself, but I may not have to travel for the next couple of weeks! Woot Woot!

On Saturday, I was all fired up to go to the Baldwin, Kansas Annual Maple Leaf Festival - yes, I'm sure it is on par with all the Canadian Maple Leaf Festivals. This is the biggest money maker of the year for that little town. There's a parade, with the ubiquitous High School Band...memories, as well as horses and fire trucks, OH MY! Loads of local vendors selling anything and everything as well as tons of "fair food". MMMmmmm funnel cake. But, alas, this year, it rained. And I mean rained. I don't think it slacked off one bit the entire day. So we made a valiant effort to still go and walk around, until the wind started blowing so hard, the little tents about to fly away. The rain was coming in sideways and we had to walk with our umbrellas directly in front of our bodies. I was soaked through by the time we got to our friend's house who lives in Baldwin. Luckily, she not only fed us - some yummy chili (how perfect is that on a yucky cold day), but had a fire in the fireplace AND let us use her dryer to dry our sopping wet jeans. There is nothing like a full belly and putting on jeans fresh from the dryer. I'm such a great guest...love to show my respect for their hospitality, by falling asleep on the sofa! I'm such a treasure to bring anywhere.

Lucky for me, I have the kind of friends who could care less. What's a little drool between friends?

Sioux Falls Down

So it's a rainy Sunday here in KC. For those of you interested in a good quick fun read, check out Janet Evanovich's new book - Motor Mouth. Her crazy cast of characters is back and funnier than ever.

Travel bruises: On top of being the most clumsy person on the entire planet, I now seem to find mystery bruises and scratches all over my body. These days people tend to look at you funny when you say, I ran into a door - as if I'm trying to hide some sort of abusive relationship - I'm like, stick around for a while and you will see my gracefulness in action.

Speaking of which, I'm in Sioux Falls last week for work. I know - don't everyone start booking your travel at once. It was snowing there for God's sake! Along with my usual travel woes of delayed flights, etc., I finally arrive to freezing, blinding wind and snow. I manage to get lost in a city that is really not that big, nor is it - at least according to the map - that challenging. So by the time I get to our offices, I'm pretty flustered. I go in the building and have to have my colleague pick me up at the front desk due to security. I'm already spazzy due to getting lost and when my colleague, who I've been speaking with on the phone for months, shows up, he manages to look exactly like one of my ex-boyfriends! Which totally freaked me out more! So we go upstairs to my temporary office and I put my stuff down. He's going to give me a tour and I go to turn around and that's right folks...my foot gets caught on the carpet and SPLAT I go down in the office! He's standing there, not knowing what to do and I'm going from prone on the ground to standing in 5 seconds flat and saying, no no, I'm fine. I swear to God! If I didn't have such big boobs, I would have no front teeth and a very crooked nose from all the times I've tripped and fallen! The only bonus of being chubby these days is the fact that my rack is saving my face from complete and total destruction!

I certainly know how to make a great first impression.

No Exit

Have you ever felt like you've made the biggest mistake of your life? That things are not clicking or fitting the way they should? How long should you wait something out before you decide, you know what? - this isn't working for me. What if you still don't know what you want to be when you grow up? My road has many forks but all of them are dead ends.

5 Year Plan

I'm about to head out to begin my first rounds of interviews on campus. Interviewing can be tedious and hilarious. One question I have always been asked and one that I NEVER ask is, where do you want to be in 5 years? I always think that is the most ridiculous question, but partly as I have no idea what much less where I want to be next month, much less next year! But I guess it is a fair question in some ways, because you need to have some idea where you want to go so that you can try to get there, otherwise, you look around and 5 years later you are in the same place...but what if that makes you happy? I guess I have yet to figure out what makes me happy, so I'm constantly looking for the elusive something.

In 5 years I will be 40. Quite the milestone. "They" say 40 is the new 30...so does that apply down the line? Is 70 the new 60? 80 the new 70? And what does that mean? To quote Queen, who wants to live forever? I sure as hell don't. My 30s haven't been the best. I read these stupid articles in women's magazines and they always talk about how great the 30s are...blah blah blah. Have yet to see it.

5 years...40 years old. Lovely.

Delusional

Happy Birthday Mom!

So today I worked from home. It was so nice. I've decided I have to figure out a way to telework from home full time. I'm actually more productive both work wise and personal wise - it's shocking!

I mentioned yesterday that I didn't think anyone really read this blog as well as that I am writing it just to pretend I'm witty...but it is apparently also given me delusions of grandeur as I am thinking about attempting to write a book! Everyone says to write about what you know...which for me is a complete lack of love life...so here we go. I'll keep you posted.

Birthday Resolution Update: well, the not cursing is going okay. I would simply say that like my many previous attempts at quitting smoking (I am a non-smoker now) I have simply cut back on my cursing. I still can't seem to stop at times as well as feel the need to replace bad words with made up ones, which really when you get down to it everyone knows what you really wanted to say when you said "frigging"! I find I need to be emphatic at times about my feelings and curse words are really the only thing that works. I also find myself making rationalizations for some words. I'm so no good at this resolution stuff.

Maybe next year...

Allergy, Schmallergy

So I went in for allergy testing today. What fun that is! And my sneaking suspicion was right...I'm allergic to cats. Not only cats, but trees and household dust. Lovely. I'm not exactly Suzy Homemaker, so I'm going to have to step up on the cleaning. The doc also recommended keeping the cats out of the bedroom - HA! As they are the only consistent male relationships I've had for quite some time, they aren't going anywhere. So I'm going to take some meds and contemplate shots. I had no idea that allergy shots were such a commitment! 5 years!!! The first year you have to get them once a week and then it gradually goes down from there.

I hate shots. Not that I know anyone who likes them. Growing up we always had to get tons of shots as we were always going overseas. My mom would tell me we were going shopping at the mall and then magically we would end up at the hospital. Humph! I always made my brother go first and he always did because I'm such a baby. I would cry and cry and cry. I know, everyone is shocked by this revelation.

Just getting tested today was miserable. Not only are they basically setting you up for some reaction but I felt as though I was getting a tattoo. Little pin pricks and needles everywhere! And to think I was thinking about getting a third tattoo! I'm such a wuss.

When I started this blog and sent it out to my friends I really didn't think anyone would actually read it. I started it so I could pretend that I am pithy and witty and because I thought it would be cathartic and save me hundreds on therapy. But apparently I have offended some of my friends by not mentioning their names in previous posts. So as not to offend anyone else, I have many friends. I am very lucky. And in fact saw a number of them last night out for cocktails. But I will say that I was most recently completely and totally shaken by disappointment from someone that I thought was a friend.

FFA and I were friends for 6 years. Throughout that time we've had our share of peaks and valleys like any friends do and I would get frustrated with her over her "flakiness". But I just loved her as she was so much fun to hang out with and we always had a good time. I have no idea what happened to end our friendship. I only know that after repeated attempts to call and text message to no avail, it is clear to me that she no longer values or wants my friendship. I am saddened by this.

So, to the rest of my friends out there, and you know who you are, I love you. Happy now? :)

Goodbye Cruel World

I'm dying, it's official. If someone could just come over and cut my head off, I would be so grateful. I have been suffering from allergies, pretty severely since about May. I kept thinking it would go away with the so-called allergy season. HA! It's freaking (I'm not cursing!) October and here I sit with one of the worst allergy attacks I've ever had. I can't breathe, I can't see and I can't take anything as I've finally decided to go see someone about this problem and they are EVIL incarnate in the fact that I cannot take anything for 72 hours prior to my visit to get tested on what the heck I'm allergic to!

Frankly, I think it's my cats. My poor boys. But it could be them combined with a number of things. So it looks like it may be shots for me. My local Osco drug store magically has become a CVS and now with the new stupid drug laws, I had to wait in a que at least 15 deep to buy the only OCD I can take - plain jane sudafed - because they now keep it behind the counter thanks to all my friends in Independence, MO who are running their meth labs! I dislike people who invade my space under the guise of standing on line. Who persistently yawn, shuffle and encroach my space every 5 freaking seconds!!! Is that necessary?! Is the line moving? Does it make you feel better to irritate me?! So I turned around and sneezed on him! HA! He doesn't know I'm not contagious! Maybe I am contagious...maybe I have spinal meningitis from going to all these stupid career fairs on college campuses to recruit?! You don't know! It could happen!

Meanwhile, I've decided to call my broker and buy stock in Kleenex. Sniff...